{{{ Dom Dishes Dis Dirt - Confessional }}}

[Dominic Briones]

THANK. YOU. JOE.

[Dominic Briones]

Whewww... That was more stressful than I anticipated. I mean, going into the final 4, I felt my chances of surviving were pretty awesome, given that Joe couldn't win HoH (which would have forced me/James/David as the possible evictees, with James choosing to evict me over David if given the chance). But I am still here. Whether or not people think I deserve it.

Sitting here in the final 3 with my 2 wins vs. Joe and James each having 5 isn't the BEST case for winning a game, but I am the only one who can really point to my social/strategic game and say "Hey, never won an HoH and was only nominated 2 times, and received 0 votes for eviction."

Idk. Maybe I'm delusional to think I actually have a shot at winning? But the nice thing is, my deal is with Joe, and I think... just MAYBE, I even have a better shot at beating Joe over James. Who knows.

Regardless, I will be fighting my ass off to win this final HoH. Because, in doing so, I can always point to the fact that, even while I didn't win a lot of comps, I was always a contender, and when it mattered most, I was able to go toe-to-toe with the game's biggest comp threats and beat them in the end. Yeah. That would be nice to be able to say.

But anyways, bring on the HoH!

[Dominic Briones]

Soooo. I have been waiting until tonight to start the challenge. It's the best chance I'll have. My goal is to get 4-5 hours worth of posting in. I mean, every minute, that's kinda balls to the walls. I'm not sure if 4-5 hours will hold up, but I questions if my sanity can withstand more than 240-300 posts in a row every minute. We'll see. I do want to win this part, just to take a little of the pressure off. Even though Joe and I have a f2 agreement, the way he wavered last week makes me think he would do the same again this week. Plus, I'm sure he and James have some sort of agreement. I'm not even going to bother trying to strike up an agreement with James, for a few reasons.

1) If it gets back to Joe, that could cost me his trust and potentially be my downfall?
2) I have no intention on keeping James if I win because I do think he's the tougher one to beat in the end.
3) I doubt James would change his mind regardless of what deal I make. I'm pretty sure James has an idea of what he wants to do. Really, it comes down to both of them predicting whether the jury will reward me for playing a game that was less in the spotlight, and required more strategy/connections than theirs. They both played the same type of game, with subtle differences.

So yeah... no need to try to strike a fake deal with James now, IMO. I doubt it would change much.

I just wanna get to the final 2 at this point. If the jury doesn't give me the win, well, I can honestly say I did all that I could do given the circumstances. It's not like I purposely tried to avoid getting the blood on my hands. I mean, it was nice and all, but I was going after those challenges just as hard as Joe/James. *shrug*

I'm already yawning. It's gonna be a long night. =/

[Tj]

May 8, 2013 6:43:40 GMT -5 Dominic Briones said:

I love it when you're kinky.

[Dominic Briones]

6+ hours and I fell asleep for a min. -___- ugh

[Dominic Briones]

Oh it was almost 8 hours. That's how sleepy I was when I posted that. Lol

[Dominic Briones]

Well, that was painful. Lol.

I am happy I surpassed my goal, but James was most likely doing the same thing I was to keep track of where I was at, since he only beat me by 3. I knew he was still going when I ended up missing a minute, so I assumed he'd ride it out for the 20 minutes he was behind in posting and then stop. Oh well.

There's still a chance that I could walk away with this HoH, but now I have to beat both Joe and James in a heads up competition, which won't be easy. However, Kevin ended up winning the first part of HoH last season and still didn't win final HoH.

Guess we'll see what happens, but that loss definitely takes my morale down a peg. Posting for almost 8 hours straight with no good outcome is a bit draining.

[Animal]

May 11, 2013 11:24:42 GMT -5 Dominic Briones said:

Guess we'll see what happens, but that loss definitely takes my morale down a peg. Posting for almost 8 hours straight with no good outcome is a bit draining.

Believe me, I know!

But chin up, buddy. You did great, and it's not over yet!
Give 'em Domi-Domination!

[Dominic Briones]

I didn't do so hot on Part 2 of the HoH. Ugh at my epic fail of a competition showing this game. Sadly, at this point, I just gotta hope and pray that whoever wins will take me to the finals. I haven't even seen them online to talk with them. Mehhhh.

More later. Talking with James now!

[Dominic Briones]

Ok, so I went from being UBER disappointed the other day to being PLEASANTLY surprised. But let's start with before the HoH Part 2 results were posted...

So, I was feeling down, thinking that my time was not so hot. I was almost certain that Joe was going to beat me, and that my fate would lie in the hands of Joe and James. This left me feeling pretty defeated, feeling as if James would MAYBE take me, but even if he did, that I'd lost in a final 2 against him. And thinking that Joe would probably take me, but with last round showing that he thought about booting me, there was always the chance that he wouldn't. Plus, even though I think I have a better shot against Joe, nothing is guaranteed. To top that all off, I would just have one more competition failure to add to my list of close finishes and pointless wins (the 2 PoVs that really didn't do much for me).

But anyways, I was just about to sign off and go to bed when James catches me on AIM. We had a very lengthy and interesting conversation. I will try to sum it up, since I didn't save it.

Basically, I was up front and completely honest with James (I felt I had nothing to lose at this point), and I told him about my final 2 deals with David and Joe and that I had actually been coming after him since like final 6. Well, not really coming after him, because you have to win HoH to do that. But anyways, he was somewhat surprised to hear that I had been working with Joe since week 1. And I don't think he expected that I was coming after him like I was.

But what's more interesting is that I found out he and David had a final 2 (yes, I knew this was the case, but what I didn't know was how close they truly were). In talking to James, I am 100% sure that David was closer with James than me. And had I came to the final 3 with David/James, I would have been playing for 3rd place if I didn't win the final HoH. David told James about the week where we lied to Rachel and how I said that, if the plan didn't work, we should vote out James to save Drew. Because that's when we thought (well I thought) that Drew was more important to us than James. However, that whole time, David and James were a final two! I thought that was about the time that they started bonding, but apparently it was sooner. So yeah. That's why James, and probably David, admitted to throwing me under the bus last week to Joe, trying to get him to take me out over David.

Also, James told me that in final 5, he had to push hard for Joe not to nominate me in his place. However, I am pretty sure that was the week I told Joe to pretend like he was going to nominate me over Drew, just to cover up our final 2. And, I guess it worked, since James really thought he saved me that week. I didn't tell him otherwise though. At least not yet. It's one thing I can use to convince the jury that I truly was playing a strategic/social game, and I don't want James to know my cards ahead of time in case I face him in the f2.

But anyways, even after telling James the truth, and him knowing I have a f2 with Joe, he told me that he is taking me to the end 100%. Do I believe him? Mostly. Here's why... When he told me this, I admitted to him that I was pretty sure I bombed the part 2 HoH. Yes, I know he could be covering his ass in case I did end up winning (which I did), but I feel like he was being genuine. Plus, I think he generally just doesn't want to take Joe to the end for a few reasons. He and Joe were kinda enemies, and I think that James perceives me as being easier to beat in the final 2. And, maybe I am. Idk. But the point is, if he's telling the truth, then I have a guaranteed spot in the final 2 regardless of who wins part 3!

With that said, James also told me that he and Joe made a f2 deal in the final 5 that James was not willing to stick to. Idk.

In the end, I was BRUTALLY honest with James, and I told him that, even if I did somehow win the final HoH, that I was unsure what I would do. That was also when I didn't think I had a shot in hell. And my honesty was a way to make James realize that I wasn't going to be a kiss ass and suck up because that's not my style (usually, lol).

So in the end, here I sit in the final HoH part 3, with a legit chance of winning this thing. If I do, I am 90% sure I will take Joe to the final 2 though. For two reasons. 1) I would be sticking to my deal, and James would inevitably have to understand since I never promised him a f2. And 2) I am pretty sure Joe would be easier to beat (hoping that I'd have at least locked votes from David/James. At this point, James would have David's vote to win, and if I betray Joe, that vote would go to James as well. So yeah, if I win, I NEED to take Joe to the finals, not only to honor my word, but to ensure a better chance of winning.

Whew... that was a long DR. My gratitude if you stuck with me.

But at the end of the day, I have a TON of respect for James. And I would honestly be proud of him if he won. But I want to win. I didn't come this far for nothing!!!

That's all for now.

[Dominic Briones]

Waaahhhh. Lol. I sucked at that HoH Part 3. Meh. Oh well. What can ya do?

James has the complete control. I want to believe that he'll take me to the f2 like he was promising, but his entire demeanor changed as soon as he won. It was no longer "official" and he wants to talk to Joe. Which... I kinda expected.

Honestly, I have a pretty intense gut feeling that I am going to be evicted this week. So, I am starting to prepare for having to accept that. If James keeps me, I will be legitimately shocked. Because I feel like I might have a better shot to beat him than Joe. So if he's smart, he might agree? Idk. I could be totally wrong. I am starting to doubt everything.... wahhhh. Lol.

Just gotta wait it out. I am trying every tactic I can with James, including playing it cool and non-chalant. But inside, I just wanna know if he's keeping me. I REALLY want to get to the final 2, and I don't know what else I could have done, aside from winning a damn challenge, to get there.

[Dominic Briones]

Mehhhhh. I'm not sure these jurors are gonna respect my game. Take away James' wins though, and I am pretty sure I played more strategically. Sorry that my strategy involved you going home. =X

We can't all be in the final 2.

Yes, I had some fortunate turns. Yes, I took some gambles. Yes, I made some deceptive moves. Get over it. Honestly, if they vote for James because they think he played the better game, then fine. It's truly a matter of what type of game people view as better, because our games were COMPLETELY different. But if you vote for James because you're pissed at me, then GDIAF. I ain't got time for haters.




Predicted votes?
Joe - I'd like to think he'd vote for me, but apparently he's pissed at me. If that's the case and he votes for James for that reason, then I lose a lot of respect for him.

David - Probably will vote for James, but I do think he should vote for me based on the fact that our games were most similar.

Drew - Most likely a vote for James.

Dani - I think she might vote for me.

Chima - Might vote for me? Hopefully. I didn't lie to her.

Rachel - Honestly, idk. I think she could vote for me, but might still hold my lie against me in the end. I do think she's mature enough to respect both games.

Keesha - Most definitely a vote for James.

So... I feel like there are 3 votes up in the air. My best chance is to get Dani/Chima, and then 2 out of Joe/David/Rachel. Meh. We'll see!

[Dominic Briones]

"I just need you answer my questions and NOT my comments towards you!

DO you want to win this game or not? I don't need an explanation for my opening comments towards you."

Lulz. What a bitch. Now she's just trying to bait me. Notice how she restates herself with the same thing twice. Oh, I'm sorry Queen Keesha. 1) You didn't even EARN your jury spot. 2) I'm allowed to respond in whatever the fuck way I want to. 3) I'm not going to engage you in public dispute, because I don't stoop down to that level. kthnxbai.

Also, notice how she doesn't give a rebuttal for any of my comments. Bc she knows I'm right.

[Dominic Briones]

Everyone is preaching about David's game being so stellar. And yes, I think it was a great game. Well, of course I would, BECAUSE I FUCKING PLAYED THE SAME GAME AS HE DID! Ugh, if these people were so willing to hand David a win, then why not me? I wasn't even an asshole to them. I owned my moves, and I am being completely blunt/honest in the jury questions, where as James is blowing smoke up people's asses, playing all Mr. Nice Guy. *vomits*

It kills me that he's probably going to win when he said he was content getting 2nd place to David. Yes, I would be happy for James, Joe, or David if any of them won, but that doesn't mean I would be content. Deep down, even if I thought I'd be ok with a friend winning, I would be uber upset to have come so far and lost.

Idk... maybe I'm wrong. Maybe they are just giving me a hard time, and they will vote smart in the end. Or maybe my game wasn't as similar to David's as I thought, but I would like to think it was. Where he had James in his pocket, I had Joe. While he was perhaps a tad more talkative with people, I had the extra comp win. Most of the decisions we made, we made them together. And in the end, I'm sitting in the final 2 and he's not. So, someone please tell me why his game was so much better than mine that this jury is giving me Hell, but seemed ready to crown him the winner.

[Dominic Briones]

And just to keep things fun... here's a tribute to any of the haters who are JEALOUS of my boogie.




Do I think I am gonna win? Hell, who knows. But I know I played this game 100% from start to end. I'm super proud of that too. I think I did my best in answering the jury members' questions, and I think I was honest, blunt, and transparent with nothing to hide. Nothing against James, but I don't think he owned his game as well as he could have. He should have done much more to highlight his 6 fucking wins! Yes, I know comps aren't everything, but James worried too much about trying to compare his social/strategic game to mine, and in the end, I don't think it compared. I would be honestly surprised and a bit disappointed if the jury gives him the win, but I'm not counting it out. For whatever reason, they view my game as subpar to David's and I guess I'm still living in his shadow, even though I am the one here in the final 2 and he's not. Yes, it could easily have been reversed, but here I am. Either you vote for me because I played the best game, or you don't.

Peace and blessings. <3

And this is probably going to be my last post. I'm not sure if Chima/Dani are posting questions, but this will be my disclaimer when Diary Rooms open:

I <3 you all, and regardless of the vote outcome, I don't hold anything against anybody. This is a game. I had fun and I will walk away proud, whether or not I am given the win I feel I deserve. I played my heart out! I'm glad to have met and played with you all (yes Keesha, even you)! You may find that I said "mean" things about you here in the DR, but please don't take any of them personal. They are within the context of the game, and I did my best to keep an active and thorough Diary Room so that my thoughts and gameplay could be easily viewed once all was said and done.